Dear Luv:
It has been a long time ago since u left and i´m this way...can´t take it anymore...come back, i whisper every night but nothing seems to happen. Where are you? Where did you go? I look up to the moon and pray for your return, but nothing seems to happen...I wake up, wishing none of this is real, that i´ll find u next to me in my bed....that i´ll finally feel you in my arms..but nothing seems to happen...i´m all alone, and sometimes i wonder if you´ll ever come back to me...if you´ll ever be with me...
let´s be honest: this is way too much better than staying still and look everyone´s faces...
If i let you bite me, would you let me go? i asked..carry me home...bite me slowly, i know it hurts, but still..i want you to...just before he drank my blood, i belonged to him already...will you stay here tonight? he asked...offer me...your blood belongs to me...no, really, i´m fine...don´t think about tomorrow...it hurts the way you bite me, but it´ll be over soon...he leaned down to press his cold lips once more to my throat...will i ever be there? don´t be afraid, it won´t hurt at all, he said at the same moment he was getting closer and pressing his lips in my throat...he smiled and asked do i dazzle you? i looked down and said yes...
Someday i´ll be far away from home..there´s blood coming from myh neck, or am i dreaming? He came suddlenly and bit my neck like i belonged to him already...he doesn´t understand i´m a free soul...but still i´m with him; let me go, i said, you know i wont be back...under the blue moon there he was...if i close my eyes, will all of this be gone? Close to death, he held me and whispered i´m sorry...on that moment i felt very sad...if i could beat death, i would...the door was already opened when i came in...he said i could get through this...and i believed him...is there any way to keep going without doing the impossible in this world? Denial is a bliss, but reality can be painful...i have to learn to leave the past behind....
the streets are empty today...and the air feels so clean and easy to breathe..and i´m here, living on my own, bare foot, feeling the cold streets when i´m walking by..i hope i´m not dreaming, i pray this is real, that for once, the sun will make its best to do the most beautiful sunset ever. that´s how i wanna be...let me be like this for a minute, a second, an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year..let me feel alive...let me love you deeply...let me press my lips against yours and feel your warmth..let me stay a bit longer..until the sun comes up once again, and there won´t be nothing more than my memories in your heart...
(this is the result of my emtpty head, wich by the way, had nothing to come up with..)
how does it feel to know you´re everything i need? to know you´re everything i want?
so, college just started yesterday, and guess what?? there were no classes!! noup not one!!! so, what i did was to hang around with my best frend Gustaf, to a place called EL CONDE, ok, i know that some of u dont know what is that place, but let me tell you that is the best place ever.. all kinds of people get together there: emos, turists, lovers, frendz, i mean EVERYONE!!! wuajajaja!! so, we talked about manga and anime and then when the sky turned dark we came back to college(is kinda close, so we walked and then we took a cab to get faster), and i found out that there were no classes at night either!!! damn it!!! i said, so i called my mum to pick me up and meanwhile, i listened some music in waiting for my mum to pick me up mode on. at the end of the day, i realized why i dont like to go to college on my first week, cuz u dont get class, u hang out with ur frendz or some students modify their schedules to have more subjects, or less...anywayz, this week i´ll skip the classes and hang out with my frendz...now i learned why some studentz don´t go to classes on their first day!!! wuajajajaja...what a life!!
Dear Luv:
