Someday i´ll be far away from home..there´s blood coming from myh neck, or am i dreaming? He came suddlenly and bit my neck like i belonged to him already...he doesn´t understand i´m a free soul...but still i´m with him; let me go, i said, you know i wont be back...under the blue moon there he was...if i close my eyes, will all of this be gone? Close to death, he held me and whispered i´m sorry...on that moment i felt very sad...if i could beat death, i would...the door was already opened when i came in...he said i could get through this...and i believed him...is there any way to keep going without doing the impossible in this world? Denial is a bliss, but reality can be painful...i have to learn to leave the past behind....
the streets are empty today...and the air feels so clean and easy to breathe..and i´m here, living on my own, bare foot, feeling the cold streets when i´m walking by..i hope i´m not dreaming, i pray this is real, that for once, the sun will make its best to do the most beautiful sunset ever. that´s how i wanna be...let me be like this for a minute, a second, an hour, a day, a week, a month, a year..let me feel alive...let me love you deeply...let me press my lips against yours and feel your warmth..let me stay a bit longer..until the sun comes up once again, and there won´t be nothing more than my memories in your heart...
(this is the result of my emtpty head, wich by the way, had nothing to come up with..)
how does it feel to know you´re everything i need? to know you´re everything i want?
so, college just started yesterday, and guess what?? there were no classes!! noup not one!!! so, what i did was to hang around with my best frend Gustaf, to a place called EL CONDE, ok, i know that some of u dont know what is that place, but let me tell you that is the best place ever.. all kinds of people get together there: emos, turists, lovers, frendz, i mean EVERYONE!!! wuajajaja!! so, we talked about manga and anime and then when the sky turned dark we came back to college(is kinda close, so we walked and then we took a cab to get faster), and i found out that there were no classes at night either!!! damn it!!! i said, so i called my mum to pick me up and meanwhile, i listened some music in waiting for my mum to pick me up mode on. at the end of the day, i realized why i dont like to go to college on my first week, cuz u dont get class, u hang out with ur frendz or some students modify their schedules to have more subjects, or less...anywayz, this week i´ll skip the classes and hang out with my frendz...now i learned why some studentz don´t go to classes on their first day!!! wuajajajaja...what a life!!
another day, another..whatever! i couldn´t stop thinking about a manga i just read in one day(17 chapters and still there are left.. im waiting for the next chapters to see what will happen), its called Doubt, and its about a famous game that japanese use to play; Rabbit Doubt: in the game, there are several people who are rabbits, and one of them is the wolf in disguise; the wolf starts to kill and eat all the rabbits one by one, and the rabbits must find out wich one of them is the wolf, otherwise, it´ll kill them all; if they find out, they win, but if they make a mistake, they end up eaten by the wolf. with that story the manga starts, but everything changes when one of them is dead, and they must find out whos the wolf among them..so, i couldnt sleep at all, so i decided to listen some music and made me feel relaxed and i could go back to sleep again..wuajaja..
so, other news: classes start tomorrow and i sooo dont wanna go cuz on these past weeks ive been ok, staying at home and hanging around(thats right Erard, i dont wanna goo), but on the other hand, im gonna start photography classes soon and guitar lesson(if i can find the teacher jejeje)..there´s nothing new, except that ive become funnier and dunno why, but its kinda cool and some of my frendz luv it and lmao..i suppose that this year will be really exciting after all... :)
ehh..i woke up today with the strange sensation that i wanted to read something..i mean, there was a thought coming up to my head and i went to check in a box all the notebooks where ive been writing since i can remember. so, when i was cheking, all the memories came back and all the stuff ive done and said, how i met my best frendz, how i met some guys, and even the day when i saw my ex again!!! (dont worry, we didnt come back..we talked and we ended up to be long distance frendz, although he just lives some blocks from my house wuajajaja). i have a little library in my room, bunch and bunch of books(literature books, amazing books, fantastic books, and law books(believe me, i ve read them all) ) anywayz, everytime i go to my little desk, i look at them and i smile deeply, remembering all the times i asked my mum to buy them for me, and my dad of curz!wuajajaja, i suppose its time to buy some brand new ones and get into those dimentions and worlds that doesnt exist out there, but my mind....
(listening "You´re the only one", by Maria Mena)
can anything be weirder than it already is? i guess that maybe, why not? so, yesterday i finished to read a book that i thought it was soo boring that i gave up before i read it completely; anywayz, when i was almost finishing, i read a part where a 36 year old man who was a priest, and a 12 year old girl who everyone thought she was possesed, fell inlove, and i was like WHATTTTT??!! and they were kissing and cuddling and saying romantic and beautiful verses of luv :s... so its true what people say: luv does not have any age...but it was sooo like in a very weird, bizarre romantic way to fall inlove..but the end of the story was pretty sad: he promised to come back to take her with him, but he was caught and sent to a hospital to take care of the ill people, and she waited for him, but he never come, and then..she died...when i closed that book, i was kinda sad, cuz i was so sure that they´d end up together, guess that sometimes not every story has a happy ending after all..
