Friday, September 19, 2008

Am i aTemptation?

Let´s face it: i´m not a pretty face, even though people say that i am; i´m not a model, even though most of the guys and my frenz say that i look like one. I´m just myself and i´m happy with it, even though i´m not perfect, cuz i´m not looking for perfection, that doesn´t exist! So, today, a frend of mine just said: did u know u are a temptation? I was kinda surprised and stunned cuz that never crossed my head and mind, and i didn´t know about that. So, now i ask myself: What things make me look like a temptation? Do i really tempt guys saying such things very...ujum...kinda..?? Sometimes, i know that i do that as playing with them, but then, when things get serious, i stop, i know my limits, i´m not looking for one night stand, i´m not that type...no sir! So, what does really, seriously, make me look like one?? My frend told me: go deep, beyond pleasure, cuz pleasure is so mundane, don´t ask me questions, search deeper...and i´m so angry with him!!!!! so mad, he doesn´´t even let me to ask him anything...just to search deeper...how the hell am i supposed to do that??? It looks like a training, the kind of training Naruto is not used to do...search deeper..beyond pleasure, he said...well, i guezz i´ll have to start to do the training..ugh!! how i hate him!!! even though he said that i look like someone he loved in his dream, but in reality i don´t look like her, and that´s why he collapses a lot, and say that when i get mad, i remind him of her...but i suspect that i´m a temptation to him, and i guezz this is why he wants me to search deeper...breathing deeper, and looking to the blue sky, i think that life couldn´t be any more ironic than it already is...

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