Head under water and they tell me to breathe easy for a while

College started on tuesday and guess what? we´ve been set two paper works to deliver on september 22nd and 29th, but im gonna deliver them early =)...so, new situation: i have two weeks left to be prepared, to pack the clothes im gonna wear, to buy shorts and new converse, and also, to stay calm and dont freak out like sometimes i usually do. Mum says that she will prepare some sandwiches for lunch, cuz my aunt told us that on the plane, we get for lunch, some crappy food. i wanna buy a Polaroid, i hope i can find one at Macy´s or other store in FL and some pretty dresses..i think its time to dress more like a lady! wuajajajaj....

mmmm..never thought that sometimes is hard to breathe when you think is easy...

Make sure you´ll miss me when i´m gone

so, on september 19th, im gonna travel to Orlando, FL, to have some fun and also to discharge all the weight of what people call, busy life; my mum, brothers, my favorite aunt and uncle and their daughter also will be go with me. besides of my suitcase and bathing suit, now im gonna ask you for some advices; any advices will do and it´ll help me a lot so i can have mad fun there and release the crazy wacko i have inside...so, which are your advices? don´t be shy and shoot!!!!!

Ry and Aimée, i hope you can give me you best advices about some stores that i can find there! if i find any good one, im gonna buy some amazing clothes, take some pics and show them to you!! for me, you´re the best guys i´ve ever met!!! luv u!!!

That´s what he said to me

"When there's something you can't understand no matter how much you think about it, you can't let yourself brood over it forever." - Allen Walker

Esta noche

Esta noche, solo esta noche, me permití extrañarte; dejé que mi mente volara hacia tu recuerdo, me transformé en humana, y soñé con tus besos, tus caricias y aquellos susurros que me hacían suspirar....
Me permití imaginarte en la escalera, esperándome, sonriente, con mi nombre en tus labios, y mi piel entre tus dedos...
Esta noche, me permití quererte más de lo usual; me permití estar a tu lado; me permití besarte y escuchar todas aquellas dulces palabras que para mí era tan fantástico como soñar despierta; me permití dejarme tocar y que mi piel erizara con tu roce; me permití tantas cosas esta noche, para así poder dejarte ir, para así tener un trozo de mí en tí...para que finalmente pudiera ser feliz...

What the fuck, dude??? SERIOUSLY!!!!

Ok, we didnt talk like we planned, but i heard something funny about this guy! He said to a frend of mine who told me of curz, that i was looking after him, i mean, that i liked him and stuff!!! O sea!!!!! y eto pol Dios??? Viejo, si te he dado una señal que te hizo pensar que yo estaba por ti y vaina, oye lo siento, en serio, but i like to talk to guys more than to girls, but that doesnt mean that i wanna be with one of them!!! Seriously!!!! cuando mi pana me lo dijo, yo hice cara de WTF??!! claro! porque a veces suelo confundir a la gente, y creen que eso es en serio o algo asi...diale! me gustaria ser en realidad mala mala!!! porque de esa forma, dejan la m**** confusion, y dejan la vaina de creerse tooo la vaina!!!! A veces, los hombres suelen ser idiotas o que??? yo quiero que alguien no se deje confiar de mi tan facil, alguien que haga que yo tenga que ponerme nerviosa, un tipo asi quiero yo!!! no alguien asi!!!! Gosh!!!! hate this crap!!!!

Busted!!!!

Last night, i talked to the guy, and we were talking some shit by the way, like nothing too much serious...so, i was thinking to set him up to make him confess about his feelings, or me suspecting about him...anywayz, i started saying that there was someone who i think he likes me, but wont say a word, unless i made him confess by setting him a trap. He was listening very quietly and very serious and funny at the same time! and then i told him that i was planning something like a tricky question, or trying to make him tell me, and he asked if he knew that person and if he could help me with some advices so i could success. I rejected his help and said i was gonna do it on my own..and then, he said: ''You're talking about me, right? i'm the guy u're gonna set up right?'' and i was like shit!!!! crap!!!! dammit!!! so, then i was laughing off and i wasnt embarrased or anything, didnt feel any stupid butterflies or my heart beating too fast or sweating or my ears get hotter, or blushing..he, on the other hand, was turning red and was laughing and he was like mumbling stuff and trying to give me examples and saying that he didnt wanna have something serious for the moment, but also was saying if you say yes..and i asked ''Fran, you like me dont ya?'' and he said ''Geez, dude! you're soo direct!!'' i mean, i have a pretty bad habit, and its when i know a guy likes me, i make him say it, with questions or being kinda too nice(wich i hate by the way), and know after all that he said like yeah i like you, you're very pretty and nice and i like you, and i just laughed..and then, after saying goodbye, he told me that we were gonna talk about it...

PD: im gonna say what i think as well...

Some part of me

Everyday, every morning, more than 5 billion of people, wake up with something in their heads; thinking about what are they gonna do today, wich clothes to wear, wich words to say. But what they dont know is that there are some things that may change their day. Some things unplanned, some things that come to surprise some part of their lives, maybe for better, or for worse. Me, for example, im a particular case; i always wake up with something, or even better, with a picture of someone, or some dream im thinking about. And i always imagine that im gonna do something different, or finally im gonna talk to the guy in my class who i suspect hates me for some non sense reason; or that im gonna take some risk and finally lay down my guards and defenses and be the person im supossed to be. But sometimes, it doesnt happen just like that, what im trying to say is that WE can change our days, WE can change the courses of our lives, WE can decide what to do, what to say, even wich clothes to wear, but most important, WE can decide if we´re gonna stand up and make a difference, or sit and look around without doing nothing at all. So, its up to us; its our choices what really make us who we are; and also, its our choices who change our days, lives, and even can change the people who are next to us..for better, or for worse...